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Interests: Given the name BiANCA but often called as B. Came into this confused world on 91890. Born and raised in my beloved country Philippines and now resident of SAN LEANDRO. 15 years of age, a sophomore at San Leandro High School. L0VES to sing and simply wanna have fun. Music is an important thing of my life, as well as FAMiLY&FRiENDS. Hating Judgemental people, so i suggest you get to know me first BEF0RE you go and say anything kayy? Hit Me up @ AIM. =)
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AIM:  B LovEs YhOo
Member Since:
6/24/2003
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| So JUNIOR year is OFFICIALLY over. I can't believe that I can finally call myself a SENIOR!=D I still remember my kindergarden days. This really proves that time do FLY! but it makes me sad. In a year time, i will be leaving people who have created such a big impact in my life for like 5 years. but i mean, that's not the first time that i've had to leave so much special people, talking about leaving the philippines. But i mean, i don't know. I'm scared of what the future holds for me and everyone but hey, we have one more year, and we`ll make it the greatest and worth while! After all, WE ARE SENIORS! '08 biaatch!=D
This year I must say, was very different. I was more free...from my parents, well sorta. I usually couldn't go out unless I have to beg them and such. I think they're finally loosening up JUST A BIT. But other things; this year, I think I found myself. I am more open, and drama-free, and could care less about the drama and shit happening around me, that are not worth my time. I used to cry over little things that are worthless, but this year, people who talk shit can kiss my ass. But I didn't have so much drama this year anyway, so itsallgood:] I happen to find so many amazing people surrounding me. I was exceptionally close to Lance & Alton and other notables people. Never have I imagined that I was going to be, and i love them. I feel like i can do anything, and i mean ANYTHING around them. Random hangouts with lance, alton, and kendra are always the funnnnnnest ever! i love them<3 Beatrice and I, was close this year, but we found that there should be space. but at the end of the day, she was still there for me and there to have fun all the time, she's always gonna be the besterest cousin that will never be replaced! There's also this one amazing person, who just happens to save me through my ups and downs. I think his name is..Duy Tran. Never have I though that I can actually bond with this guy. He's just great like that, and became one of my best friends.
I know I've been saying this to them so much, but I AM TRULY SORRRY to FION & MARIE. We've really been apart during sophomore & Junior year. But just because we don't hang out, doesn't mean that we are growing apart. I know that in the end, we're still all gonna be the originals. It just sucks to think that we could be spending so much time during highschool, but we're losing it. But, i mean, it's really no ones fault, i guess it's the presence of highschool. But i still want to say THANK YOU for every little thing you've done for me, and still giving me that beautiful smile whenever we see each other. I hope you guys can forgive me. One thing's a promise though... my fone is always on, unless i dont have battery, but you know what i mean. You know what to do whenever you need someone to rant. i love you guys. Seniors next yearrrrrrrrrr!
How can I ever forget my GOT5 girls? You girls, are amazing. Whenever I am with you, I am such a kid at hearrt. The randomest fun we can think of. This year, i know i sorta broke awayy from you guys because of my busy-ness and some other stuff. But hey, you guys know that I never really was GONE. I was still there and I thank you girls so much for understandingg. Thank you for sticking with me through Sophomore and Junior year! SENIOR YEARRR next year. Nothing will get in the way, especially beezies who have no life! Remember GOOOFY FACE! =D Girls, i love you to death, and that's whats important=D
Saying goodbye to the seniors was one of the hardest things that i had to do this year. The seniors this year was the family to me. Beatrice, Duy, Rosie, Angela, Mishy. Especially that they have been with me the longest and seeing them leave the sschool brought so much tears in my eyes. If i was sad that the seniors last year who I've only really known for a year and made a big impact, can you imagine these seniors that have been with me more than that?!! HUGEEEE DIFFERENCE! they've been there to have fun and give me a efffin' great laugh everyday. our random hangouts and all that. It's not going to be the same. The underclassmen will have to go through a vast change next year, and it's going to be hard, especially for me. I know that they're not even going away. Beatrice & Duy are going to SF state, and Rosie's going to Humboldt, Mishy off to to Davis, and Angela to Alameda Com. College, but it's really going to be different because I am not gonna have them in school with me. I am also really scared of the change that it will bring. Im scared that we will really drift apart, especially me with beatrice and duy, because they're like, best friends to me. I already know that they're going to be so busy and not gonna have time for us. It's gonna be sad that we're not gonna be able to hangout as much as we do. I'm just a little scared. I will tremendously miss them, and i mean SO MUCH that thinking about it still brings tears to my eyes. i love you guys. I only wish you guys the best in life and college. Party hard BUT study hard! You know who to call!=D Your underclassmen are always here waiting for your calls, cause we`ll always be here, and we`ll be eager to see youuu guys! hahaha=D
SUMMER'S HEREEEEEEE!=D iloveit!
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| so after a long time... i write something in here.
today was kinna great, i must say<3
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| After tonight's conversation, I feel really good. I feel secure. I have to let go, but I know i`m not gonna regret it. He made me feel that he's gonna be there by my side always, as BESTFRIENDS, and i`m really fine with that. Willingness to let go for the friendship.. i`m willing tah do. Dang, i feeeeel a lot better.
let's dance.
haha
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| What do you do when you realize you're not over a person when you know that things would not work out? I can honestly say that I'm still stuck on you. I wish i can tell you how i feel. I wish you were here beside me. i wish i can spend every moment with you. I wish you felt the same way, still. Howcome I feel that i need you? Every night i think of how i wanted things to be, and how it would have looked like if we were together. Just in my dreams yes? I know no one like you. Everyone I end up meeting, I compare to you. You are a very unique. All that i look for is in you right now, and everything i learned about you, I liked even more. Howcome when the time that i need to let go of a person, it just wont happen. "I am torn to do what i have to" --let go. but I CANT. i`m totally in LIKE with you. or maybe even close to the other "L" word, but of course i can't say that just yet. I wish i can see you right now. I wish i can simply be with you, my dreamboy<3
unaffected, YEAH RIGHT.
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| gooodbye 2006
 hello 2007
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